hi its late july and the hottest week on record im so sweaty .yuk .i want to go where it can be sunny yet cool lord send me there pleeeaaaassseee.let my art be an inspiration to many.it is colorful it is meant to be beautiful and up lifting.i know god gave the gift to create to all of us,i hope to leave a legacyto my grandchildren.my children arent all that into moms art.boys dont gravitate to my style.but bobbys drawings far succeed mine ,i hope he gets the appreciation he deserves.we need anthony or some one trust worthy like him to be our agent .well the truth is i am the only one who can take the steps to make it as an artist professionally.i have no background or schooling so it will be a rough road unless i just get the rich and famous to fall in love with my art oh lord send them my way .or send me their way.thats what warhol said and i believe him.if i acted like i did right before 1980 i would have many people loving and buying my work.i was so full of confidence,i could make friends easily.that was 19 ,now at 50 with all the life i learned ,raising 2 boys.now i am a different woman.i isolated my self thanks to living in a city with not one fun thing to do.it sucks to be poor for the reason we got ripped off from the government.we bought a house that i dont know if it will ever sell.we have never liked it.we got a deal on cheap mortgage but when we paid it all back we now owe what started as a loan for 119,950.00 in 1995 now 2009 we refinanced cuz they said we made to much money 70,000 last year. the first good year ever.so farm home made us pay it back now we owe 179,ooo.o0.1,3oo a month its tough cuz we just had 7 months of lay off.my health is is disaray from bieng fat,both knees are in so much pain it hurts to exersise.i have to get a pool.i have to get a job in the art world i also have to get peace with who i am and feel good about the life i have.living with bi polar has been an ongoing struggle. inside i want to be kind good hearted and giving but i also want so much more than what life is giving me.so as i do more rambling here are some art works to help show im not all that bad
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
i dont know why i cant upload video ive tried so many times i give up for now.so mom got her lap top we all pitched in .her 69th birthday is thursday.they are suppose to be moving soon accross the street.she is using a walker so cant drive yet.my ankles swell just like hers.i need to get up and get some water .i am watercolor painting .its hot .got the fan on .i want to get an income with all the art i make .im sure its not gonna get me rich but at least i will feel its worth all the time i take to paint pretty art.so many artists dont even try and sell alot .its my turn to get a chance to thrive.now how to get it from here to there.submit to a magazine hmm,face book is cool i see the old creative living family there on blog talk radio .cant wait for art and craft shows again.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
hi .it is tuesday i am making birthday cards for my sister and mom .dont know when ill se them mom had back surgery and terri is always doing great things for her girls.i am always home ready for the next big thing.i will learn how to write a book .tammie my wonderful sister wrote her book.i should ask her how.what would i write,how would i write it to where i could inspire or help my fellow artist .i waqnt to have a rags to riches story but no riches are to be found ,or are they hmm if only the house of art could find a buyer.im a dreamer.anthony said it the other day i said bobbys rich he has over 4,ooo dollars we have 10 but stevens hospital will take it we are sure its been over a year and they havent sent the final bill we are holding on to hope .they will send it im sure and i will be blamed for going off my medicine for 4 years,i shouldnt think im healed i guess.well im on tegretol now and 3 other meds.if i could get skinny i wouldnt need 2 of them.god help me im gonna be 50 next month and i want to get a chance to be a grandma and pro artist,i hope i can get healthy to go on.well thats whats on my mind today love gina
Monday, July 13, 2009
i have been on face book lately twitter is kinda boring .i like to see what people are doing in there lives.mine is kina boring lately.saturday we went to mukeltio anthony tried to catch crab ,none yet.he has been 3 times ,i know now why he wants to go back home to new orleans ,he is a fisherma where there are no fish.growing up in LA.he always got tons of shrimp catfish crab.up here in washington there is a friggen law for every time you make a move.licenses are $$$$ to much.evry thing is so expensive.thank god i like 2nd hand .but really im not as into them these days .i want new .well i hope to get out this week to see mom and terri mom 69 terri 52 i think ill be the big 50 next month wow,that does feel old when i think in 20 years ill be 70.i better get on living good huh.i am in pain all the time .painting for pain relief hmm wonder where the pain in painting is.i believe god knew i would suffer art thritis and gave me the passion to create to ease the pain .when your mind is so busy making art you do get away from the pain .well gotta take my daily shower it is what makes me happy .poor brandon he wont get a full time job ,and nick ripped him off 1600,00 .he let him write a bad check in his name how crazy .we all make mistakes i hope he can recover the money .wish i could sell art to help him but not yet .gotta get better at painting .i took my paints to mukeltio sat,i had kids coming over to paint and color i like to do that .bye bye
Saturday, July 11, 2009
it is saturday the 11th.terri and mom will have a birthday soon the 16th and 23rd hmm.what will i get them i better get busy .i think everyone is going to pitch in for a lap top for mom.sure wish i had my own money i have needed a job for 10 years i just kept painting in stead.if i had worked i would have disablilty now but bieng a mom housewife and artist doesnt pay me a thing.if uncle sam was aunty sam i believe i would get paid well for my work .god will give me my pay in heaven so not to worry i am happt he gave me a brain that works well when its not bipolar manic .it has been 30 years since that fateful day i got sent to belleveue hospital with a horrible nightmare.i lost my mind.full blown mania out of the blue.i was young happy ,and 2 months later depressed and fat.went in at 126 came out at 150 now 30 years later almost#$#@#$$#@$pounds.i have arthritsi ,highblood pressure ,diabetes,high cholesterol,i have no mental health help .i have a looming hospital bill from stevens hospital my first manic episode in 18 years ,i stopped the tegretol.now we actually have money in the bank for the first time in our marriage of 22 years and i cant go shopping for clothes .we dont know when the bill will come.anthony wont let me call them he thinks ignoroing it is best.i want to be a famous artist so i can get a life .i have been given this passion for art.i get for the life of me get my butt in the art market.god please give me the gift now of going to market.how did dr.suess and disney get started.hmm i should look it up.i ramble on with this blog .no one ever reads my blog so we are good for now.its my diary of sorts.i want to make a book one day with my art and biography so this is my attempt to wrtie .i love the artist sizi blu she started in jersey, went to virginia, now in san diego .i have been folowing her art life and sure wish her all the sucsess in the world.i love miley cyrus,alan jackson ,taylor swift ,george strait ,rod stewart .and now that michael jackson passed ive enjoyed his music too.grpwing up i want ed to be a musisian oh my lord i dont know how to spell that word.musitian musician .i need college,art college.i wanted to be an actress,i rocked in drama and speech in high school.me and delores my bff used to sing donny osmond in front of our parents.puppy love papaer roses..well anthony is at kyak point hopefully catching me some crab yum.i am watching pbs sewing shows.i never sew but would if i wasnt in paint all the time.bye bye .i cant upload my videos ....another thing i have to learn .
Friday, July 10, 2009
i crave some art buddys.i am home in the family room loving that i can paint all day if i want.the only set back is im not marketing my art life at all.i read other blogs where they are teaching online classes .i dont know which route to take to make art a career.i have been at it for 14 years painting and crafing for years it is in my dna to make art.the problem is i cant make any income by staying home making art and not selling it.i did not start out thinking about money just a passion for painting.i get advice from artists there are many books on how to get into galleries and art shows but i dont want to do the business part of selling .no one does .i dont know if i can give up before starting to sell.i have been struggling for many years .why paint when it just makes a mess and adds up to art that sits in the closet.now that im 50 i think its high time to slow down the making and speed up themarketing of my self.i need to get intothe art guilds that make me feel i belong to an artists group.it is vey isolating,i see myself having an art studio where my art is for sale and people can watch me paint.if i can get my self esteem and weight in check it will help.i dont like what i see in the mirror so i hide behind my the canvas.i know god has given me this passion.with his help i will become the great artist he wants me to be.i pray all the time for him to help open doors for me .to heal my body so i can get out more.i want to help my sons and my husband .i have not made any of my own money.anthony has taken good care of me for 20 years.its time for me to make it happenso now what do i do?.sell online-get published - get a show-go to a gallery- write a book with my art all over it.tell my story autobiography.has my life been interesting enough to get any one to read it.i think all is possible.i can do all things through christ who stregthens me.i want to be the change i want to see in the world .i wont let all the bad things in my life stop me.i will move forward until god brings me home.i went to the dollar store today got cheap frames to put mycard stock paintings in.thay will look better than just sitting in the drawer.here is my art enjoy it.love gina
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
i watched the memorial all day .great music and paris the daughter of michael jackson made him a special father.she made me cry .god rest your soul.i couldnt walk with out pain in both knees .i hate arthritis pain.renoir had it he was in a wheel chair and still painted wonderful work.i pray god heals me.and my mother .life is such a gift but,in pain it clouds the joy.art for art thritis
Saturday, July 4, 2009
i am home .anthony went and got a crab license.it was so crowded so he came home.its 80 degrees.i like 65 .i love the sun but not the heat .we may get chineese my favorite if i give him what he wants.22 years of marriage and we still bribe,if we want our way.i want to see the fire works but the ride out takes for ever so we will see them out the front yard .bobbys at work at albertsons.he got employee of the month.just like in school he got student of the month.what a great young man he is.brandon is living in an abandoned house with colton nick his friend is hiding from police.he got ripped off of 1300.00.brandon had to call police to get himself off the hook he wont get a fuul time job so he cant afford his own place.we cant get it through to him.i love him so much but want a better life for him.welli will get back to painting im going to try to make this interesting my life is boring but great.its why i make my art to liven it up